Yay. It's my first journal entry here on deviantART for 2008. Wow. It's been a while. Like... 5.5 months a while. Holy tits, that's a long time. Well, for the three or four of you who actually watch me, this is me saying I'm still alive and doing well. ["Yay, Matt's still alive. That's awesome."]

There's so much to talk about from the last 5 months, yet so little I'm allowed to say. Funny how that works. Heh.

Basically, back in December I went to New York City with a few friends from school, and had an awesometastic time. That was fun. The highlight of the trip was the squirrels in Battery Park on the southern tip of Manhattan. They were pretty cool.

I saw 'The Golden Compass' in the theater with Jeff, Rachel, and Emily at some point in December. It sucked total balls. If you saw the movie and also agree with my sentiments towards it, you should read the book. It's actually good. Fuck. Read the Trilogy.

Then I had a wonderblastoreocookiesyay Christmas, and new years was ok. I watched Constantine with Jeff, and then we celebrated the new year with rampant anal sex. Okay, so maybe the last part never happened, but that doesn't mean i never dreamed it.

I'm sure some cool stuff happened in the next few months, but I gave it little thought.

Oh yeah. I had a birthday. That was cool. now I'm 20. Holy shit; it's scary - I know. I'm still getting over the whole shock of it. Every once in a while I'll forget I'm 20 and have a relapse. Who knows... I could be dead 5 years from now. Scary stuff.

By April 18th I was done school. yay. I got mostly 80s in my classes so I'm happy.

I had an out of school type party thing with some of my closest friends on April 25th, once everyone was back home. It was going pretty good until everybody decided to be douchebags, and then it just became a huge dramafest. I guess thats what alcohol does to you. Hey, at least I had a good time at my own party, if no one else did. I mean until I had to clean up afterwards... like.. literally and figuratively. My parents were entertained at least. Maybe I'll have another party before the summer is over solely for their entertainment. Yeah. that's a good idea.

hey, here's a cool song:

<sub>"Don't you dare speak for someone you don't know.
You'll feel it in the back of your throat.
You know I can't construct a poem,
'Cause words, like girls, get bored and run
C'est la vie, I say "I've got so many better things"
I've got nothing, you should see me,
I smoke myself to sleep.

And blame postmodern things I can't relate,
Like summer camp and coastal states.
Like alcohol and coffee beans.
Dance floors and magazines.
I think its safe to say I've only got myself to blame
But boys in swooping haircuts are bringing me down,
Taking pictures of themselves.

And so I walk the web in search of love,
But always seem to end up stuck.
I'm finding flaws in everyone.
I've reached the point where all I want,
Is to sleep around in hopes that I will catch back up.
We are parallel lines we’re running in circles,
We're never meant to cross.

I'm at a loss, you were my tangerine,
My pussycat, my trampoline.
Now alls I get are wincing cheeks,
And dog problems, I signed a lease.
Thinking my heart belonged at 93rd and park.
Instead I broke a girl’s heart,
And flew back to Phoenix to finish the year as it started.

Can you hear me?
Are you listening?
This is the sound of my heart breaking.
And I hope it's entertaining,
Cause for me it’s a bitch.
Was it worth it?
When you slept with him?
Did you get it all out of your system?

I am a man
Holding it all
I couldn’t breath
Coming across
I didn’t know
I couldn’t give up

B is for believing you'd always be here for me.
E is for everything, even when we'd see it though.
C, c is for seeing through you, you are a fake, which brings me to
A because, because, you always run away.

I never finish phrases, I misspell.
Open arms are prison cells.
When I said, "I hate what I've become"
I lied, I hated who I was.
So when you start to wonder 'bout the pain in my throat,
Then don't you ever, no never, ever, speak for someone you don't know.""</sub>

The song is "Dog Problems" by a band called The Format.
It's a pretty good song. Download it if you can find it.
If you can't: click here -> [link] The music video is kind of silly, but meh.

It's gonna be a good summer for movies from the looks of it. For me at least. The new X-Files movie comes out July 25th, so whether you're a fan or not, you're obligated to see this movie. Idunno. It doesn't look too exciting from the trailer, but I'm still looking forward to seeing it. June 13th, 'The Happening' comes out. It's the newest film by M. Night Shyamalan. For you guys who don't recognize that name, he's that crazy Indian guy who wrote and directed The Sixth Sense, Signs, The Village, etc. I'm kind of worried though, because all his other films are pretty small-scale, so he'll probably fuck it up somehow.

Anywho, I'll be sure to make further journal updates more often during the summer, speaking perhaps of more interesting matters.

But for now, consider yourself updated.

- Spanks